~Willel

I'm not very sure on how do I have to start this journal.........why?, because I'm not very sure if I'm in the right place, I've done whatever I could.......well I tryed I know I can do more, but I'm still a "phantom" here, I'm very upset with my self......angry in some many ways because I'm not getting the results I want. I feel like a total fool, amm.....sorry I'm not explaying my self again, what I want to say is that I'm realy disapointed with my Artwork.........I used to have a dream you know?, I wanted to be an Illustrator, and spend all my time drawing because that's what I really love in this world, but there's something stoping me, well isn't one thing......there are many things indeed......I can't draw what I want I've the images in my mind and if only you could see them, but I can't put the damn ideas in the paper I dunno why..........and don't forget the fact that I'm studying a career I don't love....and actually I think I'm a total mess and the reality it's that I SUX as a Mechatronic Engeneer...I'm not happy.....btw I'm very very sad with my life, I feel bad, but unfortunally for me, I don't have the control of my own life, I wish to draw........but well I sux at that too........I'm just dunno....I'm not good doing nothing, even with people the proove is that I made all of you to run away from me, and I'm in love and let's say it's a Forbidden Love for so many reasons I'll not say, and I'm really sad for that too I'm very sad I dan't stand this fuckin life.................................I'm a sucker.

You don't have to comment I know how annoying I'm for all of you :3


I think maybe this is a good bye........I don't have anymore for you......I know I'm a good drawer, but I don't want to bee good, I want to be the best.....stupidly tough xDDD because I don't have enough skills, I want to apologize with and because they tryed to help me and they did, the thing is I'm not skilled for that @@.


And finally I want to apologize with because I was an asshole with her, well she banned me for a reason, I was bothering her ....or that's what I tough, I feel kinda weird .....bleh........I'm just saying shit again.

Bye.........SORRY FOR BOTHER YOU GUYS WITH MY EMO MOMENTS ALL TIME AND THANX FOR ALL.